It hit me like an unexpected earthquake on my way out from a yogaclass. The foundation of my connection to the Dark Goddess and her teachings were deeper and more personal than I had previously understood. I suddenly realized why I feel such a strong tie to the dark goddess. I have been in her shoes. I have felt her degradation and humiliation. My values have been stepped on and deemed to be insignificant. I have been called crazy, bitch, slut, worthless, useless, and incapable of adapting to society. Members of my own family thinks I have made a pact with the devil. My main interests have been labeled as inappropriate, weird, taboo, disturbing, and just plainly wrong.
But I am still here. I never disappeared. All I did was gather strength and knowledge until I was ready to emerge again as a fully capable and complete being. A being that has something important to offer to society. What I have to offer is nothing less than the enlightening words of forgotten knowledge. The wisdom found in the teachings of the dark goddess about magic, sex, healing, death and rejuvenation. Invaluable information to a society in decay.
The Dark Goddess is a symbol of the freedom I am reclaiming. The freedom to be me, just the way I am. To embody the weird, disturbing bitch within and allow her to emerge when she is needed. She is one of my many faces, and she gives me the power and freedom to speak up on behalf of the fierce face of god.
I'm not here to pass judgement, nor to attack your beliefs. I believe
ReplyDeleteit is the right of every human being ( man, woman, white, black, green)
to pursue their own beliefs, consciousness, place in the universe, free
will as you put it.
But we "as a race of many" have imposed upon ourselves a set of
behavioral guidelines which society deems acceptable. True it would be nice to have sex wherever we please, at any time we please. But I
think that's what we as "Intellectual Human Beings" have evolved from.
I don't think that putting the mind in reverse (so to speak) and searching through our ancestral behaviors and spiritual beliefs will accomplish your goal of free will and total inner peace and awareness.
I'm starting to lose focus please excuse me for rambling on so. But
I myself would gladly relinquish my existence on this earth knowing
that my reward would be total consciousness.
WOW ! You do have a lot of obstacles and barriers to overcome
don't you Miss Maenad !
Thank you for your comment "someone leftbehind". Just like you claim to do, I appreciate opinions from anyone, especially if they are different from mine, because those really makes me re-evaluate my stance on various issues.
ReplyDeleteApparently my post have triggered you in some way. And I am glad to oppose your worldview, as long as it makes you reflect upon whatever that might consist of. Yes, I might be swimming in obstacles, can you say that you aren't? At least I take the time to reflect upon them.
If you find "putting the mind in reverse" as you call it an obstacle on your path, then its probably not the path for you. I however seek knowledge of all the forces that might affect my current state of being. By acknowledging and integrating those influences, I feel I can move more freely in the NOW. If you don't care about where you came from, or past history, that's fine. But without noticing old patterns, history has a sneaky way of repeating itself, and being stuck in a web of repetitive behavior is pretty far away from my definition of freedom.